“I am continuously struck by how frequently the various thought processes of the inner critic trigger overwhelming emotional flashbacks. This is because the PTSD-derived inner critic weds shame and self-hate about imperfection to fear of abandonment, and mercilessly drive the psyche with the entwined serpents of perfectionism and endangerment. Recovering individuals must learn to recognize, confront and disidentify from the many inner critic processes that tumble them back in emotional time to the awful feelings of overwhelming fear, self-hate, hopelessness and self-disgust that were part and parcel of their original childhood abandonment.” Pete Walker
“WE WERE CREATED TO HEAL. When you cut yourself, your body immediately goes into action to heal the wound. Eventually, unless the wound is very severe or your immune system has been compromised, your injury will be gone, leaving little or no evidence that the cut ever happened. Isn’t that amazing?
I believe our minds were also made to heal. Although I am not completely healed of PTSD, I am a thousand times better than when I was at my worst. (See Feeling Overwhelmed: It’s a PTSD Thing for an example of the ways in which I still struggle.)”
“Sorrow, sadness, grieving, and other unhappy terms apply. I like this grief path that depression is a look alike but not one of the emotions. Depression stops the other processes. Depression halts me feeling the grieving and sorrow. Depression blocks my feeling what I need to feel to let go of the pain. I didn’t see that coming when I sat down to write this post. But there it is. Depression halts the healing process by blocking and depressing the emotions that need to be felt to heal. I learned that sitting with my sorrow is not depression. Shoving my sorrow in a hole and soldiering on as if nothing happened when it did – that is depression and keeps that sorrow stuck with me. Wow. I’m going to need to think about this one for a while.”
“I stopped being able to sell books easily when I lost the fire in my belly about books. I lost that because they were no longer the only place I didn’t hurt, they were pleasant diversions, but not necessary for sanity. I lost my passion, the why I loved books so much, and my ability to sell them easily at the simultaneously.”
“In the same way, I lost my entertainment “muscle.” I used to be a superior hostess and was known for it. But I was continually on stage — felt like I was a performing seal. When I stopped being hypervigilant and immersed in the life PTSD had left me, I stopped the dog-and-pony show. Somehow I just can’t get it in my brain again that I need to be able to be entertaining: tell stories or do schtick occasionally.”
“9) Breathe. This helps calm feelings of panic that can happen during a flashback. When panicked, muscles may tense and breathing becomes shallow and short — which can heighten panic. Take slow deep breaths in and out. Getting the air you need is soothing, and deep breathing interrupts the automatic alarm signals from your body.”